i was a judging person.
by means of judging, i really judge a person.
on every single details.
for me, i x boleh nak pergi dengan orang yang sebaya.
orang sebaya ni selalu tak leh nak control i.
i was super duper annoying person actually.
i tak penyabar. i suka buruk sangka. i emo. i kuat marah. i pendesak.
then, i tau only the matured person which for me the old one (maybe 5 years older than me) can handle myself.
thats why i like to be friend with my senior and more close with them.
things got worse bila i judge the person appearance.
i tak boleh pergi dengan orang yang stylish, yang care about their appearance. for me, a man should be simple. how can you wear a jacket or cardigan in this hot environment?
i tak boleh pergi jugak dengan someone yang suka hiburan. by means hiburan bukanlah kate i tak berhibur. suka for me is you suka giler kat artis. you asik la nak nyanyi. asik la nak join competition sana sini yang melibatkan hiburan. i just cant.
i also become judgemental on the relationship built using social media. how can a person fall in love by meeting in social media? what? are you kidding me? for me, love grows when you see them lively, spending time together.
the other things is, the unlogic things, i dont like engineer. its not that i dont like the job, but my friend always said,they want to marry an engineer for a better life. i easily get annoyed with that statement as for me do every man have to be engineer?
and for now, i fall in love. with a person. who got all the personalities i dont like and i judge as above. haha. thus. maybe this is a lesson allah give me. dont judge. you never know what allah prepared for you for the future.
awak. it was a blessed and lesson for me to meet you. you are younger. stylish. suka nyanyi. found u in social media. an engineer to be.but the main things is, u can handle me. handle my behaviour. who are you awak? how did you change my life without doing anything? tak pernah saya cuba untuk paham orang sampai macam ni sekali.
sincere for my own heart,